I am just doing the normal study for a test thing. today i decided to do it a little different, i do like to shake things up from time to time. On a computer in the humanities lab, i chose to listen to a byu french studies podcast as i studied french grammar. It was one with the director yvon le bras and two girls who qui ont faire les stages en France. I thought as i was listening, oh ya, this will be really great for me to hear.
i don't know if i was wrong or right. as it was playing there was an increasing pressure in my chest cavity. this happens from time to time, meaning that my heart want to explode because of happiness or longing or something else. this was longing. more than a want, more than a desire. its a must. i must go to france. i'm going to live there for many months and see what it tastes like.
Why do i love all things french? i'm not sure. i just always have and i can't stop. i know it has something to do with the fact that i love culture, and this is the one i've been studying for so long. when you feel like you know someone, you can't help but love them like they are a part of you. thats how i feel about france, about speaking french. its all i want to do. i want to speak it at home but i know that know one will understand; they'll just think i'm showing off or something. il y a un trou au coeur quand je ne parle pas français. et je pense peut-etre cette semestre il est en train de grandir.
so i've started this blog today. listening to richard galliano on the accordion. dreaming.
why do i feel this way. i have plans. to go on a mission. i can do an internship in france afterwards. i know this. but at the same time i feel like the brat in charlie in the chocolate factories, don't care how, i want it now. but i'll just try to let me heart simmer down and study for this test.
i hope i do ok. ! yikes. i want to learn french. here i go.
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