Eat for Health, Run for Parker

A new day and I have a new motto.

Eat for Health, Run for Parker.

My dad came home recently with the news from his doctor that he was pre-diabetic because of his eating habits and lack of exercise.  YIKES. He told us and the room got quiet and we all just sat there thinking about how this wasn't good and something needed to be done.  In a family, you work together, then you accomplish together.  So I made a pact with my dad to not eat desserts or soda with him so that he can get into a better condition, and then frankly, I will too.  I've stuggled my whole life to eat with moderation and be consistent in exercise, but I feel more motivated than ever now.  If my success means his success, nothing can stop me.  Its personal now.  My daddy needs me, and I will do everything I can to succeed.  I hope he can be healthy to play with my kids one day.

So that is why I say, Eat for Health.

One of my best friends and former mission companion Michelle Parker has been suffering since Last May from an unidentifiable disease that pretty much restricts physical movement and makes her really tired.  She was always really really active and LOVED running.  Until she can run, I feel this compulsion to run for her.  As if some how me running makes things more just in some way.  This doesn't make logical sense, all I know is that I run for her.

So, I will keep running for Parker.

With these emotional investments, I can't help but be consistent.  So here we go. I've been running almost every day and I've been off desserts and soda for 8 days.  I'm feeling healthy and proud of myself.  I feel solid not on the brink of binge.  It feels good and freeing.

I've kind of been in this relationship for about 4 months or so with this guy and we recently ended things.  It was never really a fully ripe relationship, always me kinda hoping for something more and he being kind of confused on how to feel when a girl is obviously liking him.  What else to say when someone else is missing you and thinking about you? SO anyway, we officially were dating for 2 days. Ha. But then we talked and it wasn't a good idea.  I guess I let myself fall in love too fast.  So now I'm in a recoop stage.  Its been ok, I still think about him, but its getting less and I don't consider calling him everyday tho usually he comes up in my mind. I will call him after I hear the new Mates of State album Mountaintops and I think we'll have a good convo.  We are good friends, so I hope that I can separate him from a past failure in love.

Today in the grocery store as I asked my mom's permission to check my blood pressure by the pharmacy she told me that since being around me for so long, she's really been seeing her little Emily in my facial expressions and stuff.  She said its just been so long since we were around each other so long, that she is happy to see me again.  It was a beautiful thing for her to say and it made me really happy.

Another highlight of the day was when I was running at the track.  I entered for a second that shade and it was sooo nice, I found a lady in the shade too and I commented with her about it "oooo its nice here in the shade!"  "oh I know, that's why I'm walkin' slower here" she said.  We laughed.  I love laughing with strangers.  Then later on I saw her again and inquired whether she walked everyday.  She said, "yeah everyday since last august, I've lost 100 pounds now! I'm just trying to get to the weight on my license, I've been lying all these years!!" I was shocked and so impressed and I told her I've been lyin' too. A great moment.

So I will try to write daily now. Last night at FHE they said that journal writing enhances goal achievement, so i'll see what I can do. : )